February 11th-13th

This was another interesting time as Benjamin continued to be brought down by all that was happening to him. I was starting to lose it as well when I figured out how serious it all was. I was trying to go through the motions and was hoping someone would try to understand this with me. I felt so very alone dealing with something no one else should have to deal with. The only one that understood and kept by Benjamin at moments of distress and severe hardship.

This is a nonfiction story of extreme hardships, the divine purpose before me, mysticism, my ascension sickness that I dealt with and esotericism. It is important to start from the prologue of this story for it to come together and to look through the rest of the earlier posts for information and insight. It is really important for you to do this to get the full picture. I wouldn’t be putting this down if I wasn’t being truthful and honest with everything.

Later on the 11th of February to the early 12th, I was asked by Ben “How much time do I have left” and I was told four weeks by the Blake spirit who controlled him. Later on we had some small talk and I asked if he was ok and at home and said he was fine and at home. I was told that police were at his house until he woke up and was wondering why he was released after what happened last night. He said that if he stayed, more would die anyways and that Blake left a note for his brother Anthony and two for Benjamin. The note read: “If more people come then they are here to die, leave no survivors. Only the kid should be alive with her. Sorry Benjamin but I only have 1 objective and it is getting Chelsea with you to bond so I can stay with the spirit she has… Carly….” Then I asked where she lived and he said Texas. He said that it was two weeks max until he takes form and goes after Chelsea in Houston. I asked if Blake saw her through Skype video or through physical contact. He told me to hurry or that he would die in two weeks time. I told him that it’s going to be real difficult to get through to her on everything since she lost trust in him, that Blake did something that she didn’t like at all and that she doesn’t believe in spirits. Telling me that she can trust Benjamin but not Blake, as he has done it, not Ben since he is innocent. I told him that I cried last night and was shaking at the time and that he was crying. It was all really hard for him to think about. He said that his body was dying and was now resistant to the cold and has no clue why. I said I would contact Chelsea and see if she responds. I told him that when I first met him on that Minecraft server I wasn’t expecting any of this happening.

This is where I was also starting to break down. He tells me that he is shaking and crying and trying to hold things together. I was at the dinner table with a poker face trying to take everything all at once from the night before, etc. Looking up to inspirational things like Charlie Chaplin’s speech for support. This is also where he was starting to forget things like when he first spoke to me. I was asked by Chelsea now if anyone like Resser told people that she was in the hospital and was told no or he couldn’t remember. Now he said he got cuts again by Evil Emotion spirit on his leg (Look at 7th image on Imgur album). Then I was trying to get Chelsea to answer me and then he had pain on his head maybe from Chelsea thinking. He said that he would love a timer for when Evil Emotion would take actions of its own and kill Ben and I said I wish for that not to happen. Then I asked him if it would be ok if I told him my first name and was told “I shall not have the power to choose, I shall let it come to your hands of choice” which sounded like it was someone else responding. I found out he would be up all night because he would get nightmares when he tried going to sleep. After he said he was stunned, paralyzed for a half hour after hearing this voice again so he couldn’t message me. He asked me if I wanted to know what was said and it said: “Its been telling me “Just be with her and I will leave you alone forever Benjamin I just want to be with Carly but if you do have Chelsea then I myself will be with her but you have to be with Chelsea forever as well… I am sorry but this is the only way we can handle things together. I am sorry for causing chaos and murders but if you disobey I will possess your body and kill more people. Not just random people but the ones you love dearly like her and many more in the past. I will kill them all even including this city itself.” I asked him if Emotion will actually stay with Benjamin or would he leave and then he flipped out saying he didn’t have powers over that.

This was when he changed over to Emotion saying that he would be “taking his body now” and that I don’t understand that spirits just don’t dissapear into thin air. And also telling me that once Benjamin dies he would go after her, make her lose her sanity and kill herself. That he doesn’t like games, people, earth and thinks it is all trash. Telling me to bring her to him and that he will leave Benjamin and Chelsea alone – Otherwise he will destroy everything surrounding the state. I asked how I could achive this and was told to bring Benjamin and Chelsea into a relationship but he could see that Benjamin was refusing that. I asked if she needed to physically be with him or not and I was told no. Then I was told that spirits can see each other over net and can speak to one another but we wouldn’t be able to hear them. I asked him if he had to be near me to know anything about me and told me that he would have to have contact with another spirit in order for him to know me. He reminded me how much time I had left, it being 1 week and six days. I told him that I would do all that I can to bring them into a relationship and was told that he would have to be with her for the rest of his life or be killed. After this, he said that killing Benjamin would release him into the air so he could find Chelsea, kill her and release Carly into the air. I asked if I ever spoke to Bianca and was told that I have.

Later on the 12th, I got through to Chelsea and she thought that I was Ben which I thought was a good thing. This was where he thought she would never understand and pretty much gave up. Even asking her why she must hate him for something that he didn’t do. His brother Anthony also made things worse by trying to contact her. I told him that Anthony needs to stay out of it. He was telling me that he wanted to let his life go that he was having physical issues and everything. Saying that he feels the invisible knife on his neck and asking me what he can do. He started giving up at this point and put his arms up and wanted to let Emotion kill him so Emotion could go after her. I had to get lunch and he had Matthew, his best friend there with him. Then when I returned, Emotion took over telling me that time is running quick and that he’ll give him bad thoughts and kill him. Saying that he has power to his core now. I asked for him not to do that and what happened to the 13 days and said that time would be taken away. Saying that she wouldn’t care if Benjamin died so that Chelsea would have to die now. That he would put a curse on both of them. I messaged Chelsea trying to get her to answer and understand and come back to Benjamin. I said it would be in her hands if she accepts or not. Emotion asked me if I wanted to speak to Real Ben and said yes and showed a few words of encouragement that I messaged her everything I could muster to get her back to him.

This is also where my thoughts kinda went haywire as I was also quite broken during the time thinking that I was some sort of chosen one (and still feel like it) in all this because no one else would understand. I started crying just thinking of him and Chelsea being killed and more, it was just horrible. He started going off again saying that his fears haunt him and she doesn’t need him and that he is “a simple part of hate and sadness.” That he was blocked by her and doesn’t want to see him. All he wanted was to fade away. Then Evil Emotion came back telling me that he is fading quickly and will lose control of himself and that Emotion is actually not in control of any of it if Benjamin does. Emotion said he took his right eye and that Chelsea doesn’t need him. I had pretty much failed at this point and that he gave me one job (to have Chelsea befriend Benjamin) and that I failed him. Time was running out but I still had time. I pretty much turned Chelsea against Benjamin he told me. That the only way to make things right again was to get them back together and that I would try to do so with my heart and soul. This crystal he’s looking for, being a power core on Chelsea and that the only way to obtain her was to slowly break her shield down until she opens herself to Ben once more. That if I would go straight into it I would most likely fail. Emotion was not knowing if I had the time and that Real Ben may use the knife in front of him on himself. I prayed for that not to happen.

Now I said something and he thought I was asking for his help which I wasn’t. It seemed to go on from there and that I would receive help from him to get to Chelsea and Carly. Evil Emotion was in contact with five spirits that day and told them to hold position over at Chelsea’s. I asked what he meant by hold position and was told that the spirits would be there to eat her soul and that it’s what they survive on. I was told Benjamin also sent people from the government after Chelsea to protect her from everyone. He also wrote a song to her and I was wondering about showing it to her. I just wasn’t sure of what to do at the time. I wasn’t sure what was possible for us. He was losing his mind, I was losing mine as well and that he couldn’t hold it all back anymore. He said he would go after her if that is what it takes. He asked if I wanted to speak to Benjamin again and I said yes but was scared of his mental state. I was told his mental state was in a balanced condition. Emotion asked how do we do it, if he should give me more time or take him to her and I said it would be good to wait a bit more. Then he switched back to Real Ben again and gave me a quote from three weeks ago from Chelsea that read “but I want to hang out with him.. I want us to be friends.” He was telling me that she is usually not like this at the moment and that quote shows how their relationship was. He was asking me if I could ask her to unblock him so he could put something through but it didn’t work. I was just asking myself why couldn’t she be spiritual and religious to make things much easier.

After some time went by (it was early morning of the 13th), he messaged me again from his other account and sent me an image of what he saw on the ground and it was scary because I could see a dark demonic like figure made out of the shadows on the concrete (look at image 8 in my Skype images imgur album). I was told to take it easy but I couldn’t help but to shake uncontrollably.

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You may follow the story from the full Skype chat logs from my “how the story goes” post.

You may get to my Skype images at my “how the story goes” post. I suggest you only see the ones that you need to see for the time being.

With love and light, always!~

 

 

February 11th

The following early morning was a doozy on February 11th. You know that day when there was a full moon (snow moon) and lunar eclipse with a comet? That many would say signals that the end times may be here? The same day I heard the windchimes at my ears, smelled the brimstone at two different occasions and had my house shake but no one else felt it. That it was only me shaking for some reason but it feeling like a 4.0 earthquake. I explained that more elsewhere. With those Skype images I had of the conversation in another post, this is what happened that day.

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This is a nonfiction story of extreme hardships, the divine purpose before me, mysticism, my ascension sickness that I dealt with and esotericism. It is important to start from the prologue of this story for it to come together and to look through the rest of the earlier posts for information and insight. It is really important for you to do this to get the full picture. I wouldn’t be putting this down if I wasn’t being truthful and honest with everything.

I started speaking to Anthony and he asked if I had any response from Chelsea and I said that she wouldn’t forgive him for something Emotion did to her. I said that it had something to do with Emotion sending the government after her to get a hold of her or something of the sort. That the simple fact is that spirits are in this situation making things harder and that Chelsea doesn’t understand that. He tells me that his brother is still suffering and that I still understood that. Telling me that the government wouldn’t hold back anymore if something were to get out of hand. That we are running out of time and thought that the only way for Chelsea to understand is to see what has happened first hand. That Chelsea thinks that he is a lunatic otherwise. That either Ben changes for her to like him again or Chelsea changes. I told him that Real Ben tried to be friends with Chelsea but each time he tried Bad Emotion did something to ruin the relationship and lost Chelsea’s trust. All Anthony could do was hit a concrete wall that his brother was in this condition from this simple misunderstanding. I said it would be a miracle if they get back together. Anthony tells me that Real Benjamin would know how to deal with this situation but that “something” was really hurting him and not allowing him to go anywhere. That their mom is also affected and in bad shape knowing Benjamin is in trouble and may die. Anthony started to lose his temper at this point saying that his mom wants to die because Benjamin has nearly given up on life. He apologized and then I said I would try my best to get the situation under wraps. His mother even saw Benjamin’s hand choking himself. Also asking why Chelsea can’t understand that a spirit possesses and oppresses Benjamin. Anthony told me that Benjamin would be discharged tomorrow morning. He talked about holding back the government until he recovered and then I asked why hasn’t the government taken him in if they know where he lives. Anthony told me that it was because Benjamin didn’t know anything for two years and hardly recognized his own family members. Saying why life has to be so hard for his youngest brother and I offered my words to him about it.

Now I was trying to move on from that topic and asked more on the crystal that he mentioned to me before then some things appeared to be happening. I get a message from Benjamin’s phone account saying “I still hang” and I asked what was going on saying to him he should get his rest. Then he says that “Ben the boy”, “will die” and asked where she was. I said she was in Florida (which she actually is in Texas) and he said “four more weeks.”Then Anthony tells me he gets a call from the hospital saying that Benjamin is acting strange. I asked if they physically met before and was told no and then asked why the connection, why he Emotion needed her. I was told that there is a spirit also attached to Chelsea that she doesn’t know about. Then Anthony tells me that there is a camera on Benjamin as they lock the door. I asked Emotion who that spirit was and that it was his (Emotion’s) beloved and that she was killed by us. Anthony says that he was still on call with the hospital worker and that Benjamin was looking back through the window and the phone with red eyes. Anthony then says that they shot him with a syringe saying that he’s paralyzed and that it doesn’t seem to be affecting Benjamin. Then Emotion tells me that he will kill everyone or “All you idiotic people.” I asked why his beloved is attached to Chelsea and said that he didn’t know. I told Emotion that he forced Chelsea to hate him after what he did to her and that she must understand that spirits are in this world to understand him. Then I was told that there are approximately 1.3 million spirits in the world and that most were men. Saying that wars caused their deaths and that people started them. That the world was not made for killing, it was made for peace and happiness and that I agreed.

I was told by Anthony that the Emotion spirit levitated and won’t go down and that they shot it with a gun. I said that I would bring her to Emotion spirit and make her understand and then was told that he will wait and sit on the roof scouting out for people. I said I would make Chelsea understand that there are spirits in the world and was told that she doesn’t see it because of a side effect the spirit put on her. I asked for the spirit’s name and was told her name was Carly and told him that he should inspire peace and love instead of violence against violence. When I said that he said Bianca was supposed to fill that role, his twin sister. That his name is Blake. I said hello to Blake and he told me that I would die. I mentioned of Anthony and Steven possibly going right to Chelsea in Houston, Texas and Blake said I had requested a bounty on them when I did not. Anthony said that he went after him and told him to stay away from Blake. Blake said that he would kill anyone that comes to stop him basically and that he doesn’t like people. I again told him to turn to peace and love and to show them that this is what they must do, to disarm their weapons and that Blake is searching for this spirit and that he will stop once they meet again. Blake injured four swat members using only his hand. He then said “Was this my weapon for the war?” I again tried to tell him instead of using violence to just disarm and lay their guns down. Blake also said that he cannot die and that he’ll sleep. I asked Anthony to please take a picture but it was already too late as he saw Benjamin collapse before him. He couldn’t take a picture since he was dealing with the wounds of a swat team member and that they were telling him to leave anyway. Telling me that they had a piece of Benjamins hand in them. Saying that they brought Benjamin back to the Hospital bedroom and only saw him for ten seconds. He said that he was going home and that “there was nothing left”. I asked him and he said that we can’t stop that thing that controls Benjamin. That it “is the power of speed itself”. I told him that we couldn’t use violence against it and that it hates violence. He said that his mom would bring back Benjamin tomorrow even after that affair..

After this I cried thinking what would happen if.. you know.. goes crazy with power and purges the entire world. I also had wonderful loving thoughts. This was when I felt divine, I went out to the cemetery and saw 20 or more green spirit orbs. I felt like the celestial events magnified the energies that night. Then when I was at home I had a flood of love and pure joy while in bed. I was surrounded in good feelings of oneness with God and the angels and just wanting the two to become one again. Green spirit orbs are known as being healers. So that night I was comforted and healed by them. The windchimes I heard is a signal that angels are nearby. More about it in “my other ‘minor’ experiences” post.
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You may follow the story from the full Skype chat logs from my “how the story goes” post.

You may get to my Skype images at my “how the story goes” post. I suggest you only see the ones that you need to see for the time being.

With love and light, always!~

February 9th

This is a nonfiction story of extreme hardships, the divine purpose before me, mysticism, my ascension sickness that I dealt with and esotericism. It is important to start from the prologue of this story for it to come together and to look through the rest of the earlier posts for information and insight. It is really important for you to do this to get the full picture. I wouldn’t be putting this down if I wasn’t being truthful and honest with everything.

This was where things got even more interesting.

On February 9th, this was where he started saying that it won’t heal saying that “the spear has got him already” and that he will die now and commit suicide. I was trying to reason with him telling him to not think that way. I asked if he had any known medical conditions and he said he didn’t have any. I asked him if he could try something, to try to get a holy Bible and try to see if something reacts to it but he didn’t want any of it. He said he wouldn’t go any further than his room. Saying now that the girl no longer appears but it is now a spear or his death. Saying that he doesn’t want to continue and that it’s like a game of punishment and torture and that no matter how hard I try nothing will work. This was where I wasn’t really sure of all his talk yet again and had an essay of stuff written out for him. I thought it was still a prank but still had thoughts of it being something demonic that happened to him like an ungodly soul tie. This is where he poured out more information on me. That it was not his fault he got possessed and all the things that happened to him such as the loss of his father, friends and his mom having troubles now. This is where I tried to calm him down and to tell him that he needed to find some sort of help about this. This is also where he put his trust in me to help him and said that his best of friends can’t help him.

This is where he changed again to Emotion and told me that Real Ben should have been dead and threw some profanity at me. Told me to leave him alone. Saying that he is just an ordinary kid feeling his pain. This is where he started saying that he is cutting his body. He told me to bring the key to Real Ben’s soul or Chelsea in this case. Saying that it’s about the person with the power and that Chelsea gives him power and that he goes into his “rage mode” and kills people that capture him. This is where I didn’t quite understand and where he said that he is more than just an emotion. This is where I started to ask him questions and found out that Emotion is indeed a spirit who was sent by someone and would not say by whom. That he is controlling him, controlling Benjamin. I asked him if he can sense things and he could not but only if he made a connection with me. I asked if this happened to other people online and he said that this is the first occurrence February 9th 2:38 PT. I told him that Jesus Christ will put him down but he couldn’t do anything to him because he has more souls attached to him. Telling me to bond Chelsea and Benjamin together to make things right. Saying he lost her and that they were supposed to be friends together until she ages and dies. That it’s what Ben wants, to not be alone. Saying that no one can help him (Real Ben) and that’s why he gives the answer to me. Telling me he can be mean but he can be nice, that he is emotion with two feelings.

This is where things got more interesting. Emotion told me that Evil was doing horrible things to Real Ben saying that they are Yin and Yang, one evil and one good. I asked if I was talking to Evil or Emotion and that Evil was the one cursing me trying to make me stay away from him. That this one is trying to protect him. I asked about Veronica but was told that it is a different spirit attached to Ben and Emotion spirit (I will continue to name it Emotion Short for Emotion Ben). I asked how I was doing with him and Good Emotion said that I am doing fine and that Veronica would be talking to me later. Saying that I needed to help him and that I was trying my very best to do that. I was promised that if I achieved the friendship between Ben and Chelsea that they would be able to restore his life back to normal. That Evil will also move on. I asked if a deliverance or exorcism be done and was told that those type of things wouldn’t work on them. Saying that evil is being held back and that his veins and eyes are not in good shape. That Real Ben is scared and that the same thing happened two years ago. Saying that the kid (Real Ben) is slowly dying in pain and I asked if there was anything more to help him other than having him befriend Chelsea. Emotion said that there isn’t anything he can ask for and that he’s trying not to give up. That words of encouragement would not work, only getting through to Chelsea would stop things from happening. I asked if he is thankful for finding someone like me and he said that Ben is always thankful but can’t because of his depression. I asked how I could even contact her because I had trouble getting her Skype profile and that it’s hard to friend someone on instagram and snapchat. So we shared screens and I was shown Chelseas profile and information. Emotion had to leave to let Real Ben sleep.

Now I was talking to Jessica who said she was also a spirit who is following him. A good spirit. I asked about Veronica and was told that she was her support. I asked how are we speaking right now and if she could put pressure on things like keys. I didn’t get a straight answer, I got “about that.” I immediately asked if she is a old spirit and got the answer of yes, about 500 years old. I was told to get the girl back to Real Ben again. Saying that Evil crushed and destroyed Ben’s and Chelseas relationship they had. Benjamin’s eyes glowed red and killed 127 men, gangsters in the LA area. That Chelsea knows about it. I was wondering why he wasn’t in jail for killing people or more likely why Evil Emotion wasn’t. If they were to Banish him then good will become evil. That it would be like Yin and Yang, of good and evil. There is some black on the white and some white on the black. I asked her if she was amongst the living and she said she was a little girl and got chased off a cliff and died. That her body was found at a temple and that’s where she became a spirit. Also saying that the temple lays underground under this cliff that collapsed 400 years ago and that she can’t find her body again. I asked her if that’s why she’s trapped in limbo or purgatory and she didn’t know those terms as she died as a child. I should have apologized a bit more but asked her if she could tell me more about Chelsea and Ben.

This goes back to my first story post of what happened before September. She told me that Benjamin was himself for a month and came back to see the beautiful world again but still cried for his lost friends who died in a school fire. So Ben one day was playing Minecraft on the Gotpvp server and was just standing in spawn spamming his keyboard making him crouch. This is where he met Chelsea and decided to build her character and then he had to go. He was happy that he made someone happy. The next day she was on with him but Real Ben didn’t come back due to his memory. Scared to come back because everywhere he went people just died like him being the curse to everyone but he should know it happens naturally and he can’t control the fact that his friends died. For Chelsea however, she ran across Evil Emotion. Saying that when his friends died that was when he abandoned his feelings, didn’t want to feel or sense it, didn’t want to get hurt everytime something happened right in front of him. That’s where Evil took over his body completely. This is why people looked for him because he’s a weapon due to evil and is why some gangs want to initiate him in but evil killed them instead.

That the time in September where he said he was depressed was a heads up from evil. After unbelieving a little about him actually killing people I asked how did people not kill him. I was told that when Evil takes over he is more powerful than anyone with amazing speed, with slash and dodge and even more abilities. I told her it sounds scary for it all to be actual fact and she said to me that she wanted me to know this stuff. That good and evil are twin spirits with different personalities that are stuck together. That they died together and became a spirit. Died together as sister and brother. The sister being the good educated soul and the brother being the bad and athletic soul. I asked how much time I had left with her and I was told 17 minutes. I asked how she knew and that she can see and know time itself and knows what will happen to him tomorrow as well. I asked if she could sense what I pick up and she said she had a limitation of 1 mile away. I was also asking if she could communicate with spirits near my area to contact me and she said that I don’t contain that ability since I’ve only seen one, an orange orb spirit over my bed when I was about 13 years old. That for any ability like that I would have to be within a mile away from Real Ben. This is where she let me off and I finally went asleep.

In the early morning on February 10th, I finally messaged Chelsea and wanted to tell Real Ben. So I messaged him but didn’t get to him but got to his brother Anthony again. Anthony said that his brother was taken in to the hospital in the morning so they can analyze his brain and body damage. I asked why and was told he lost himself last night and I added I knew that he was being messed up and that it wasn’t exactly him doing it to himself. Anthony said it was from lack of sleep and unknown behavior. Then I asked Anthony if he remembered me asking him why he was saying “where is the key?”. Anthony told me that he noticed that it wasn’t him and that his eye color changed. I told him what the key was and that it was a girl on Skype and he knew because Benjamin’s best friend Matthew gave him a document. I asked what was in the document and it was about the two years Benjamin was never himself and it was something he didn’t know about until the start of this year. I was asking him what he thought was happenning and was told that a lot of scars appeared on Benjamin’s body and that no one knows why. I said that I had the answer and was trying to see if we were on the same page as to the reason why. I was trying to see if he knew what Emotion was at this time and he didn’t know what it was yet. I said that Jessica and Veronica were helpers trying to keep evil at bay. Saying that there is a good side and bad side to his other self, Emotion and that he will remain depressed and that Emotion would not leave him alone until he, Emotion gains the love of Chelsea once more.

Then Anthony says that “the eye of a blade who wants to kill my brother wants love in order to leave” and I said yes that’s what the good soul/spirits told me and that all will be returned to normal once that happens. He asked how do we get to her or vice versa and I said I have contact with her now and to let Benjamin know when he comes back to normal. I tried to see if he knew that they were actually spirits and not just a separate soul attached to Benjamin. I needed his trust in me since I’ve helped his brother out so much and he accepted. Anthony was looking for answers and I happen to be one of the people that does have answers. Saying that the gangsters got Benjamin after flipping the car he was in, killed the cops that had Benjamin and then kidnapped him. That he survived in the car without bleeding out. That was when evil killed about 130 of them and is why Benjamin is called “valuable weapon” to them. Anthony then says that Benjamin is a very smart and talented kid when he wasn’t originally in elementary and middle school. Though when high school came around he became smart within four months. There was a lot of talk but Anthony did say that he saw Evil with red eyes looking at Anthony while stabbing “himself” while in the bathroom. He was also telling me that there was a secret page of a video of Real Ben choking himself and Benjamin trying to fight back. It was when Evil lost control of it’s right arm and started to turn against himself. I was also told that when Benjamin was two, that he ate a blueish green crystal of some sort while at Long Beach, California. The doctor’s couldn’t remove it because it was connected to his veins and probably attached itself to his organs. This is where Anthony needed to go.

I talked to Real Ben after this and pretty much told him that Chelsea is what he needed to get things back to normal. However, he didn’t take it. I was trying to edge him on about it but he said that “friends do nothing” and was trying to tell him that wasn’t true. I tried showing him what I was told by the helper spirits and the answer was still no. I let him go to sleep after that and let him recover.

You may follow the story from the full Skype chat logs from my “how the story goes” post.

You may get to my Skype images at my “how the story goes” post. I suggest you only see the ones that you need to see for the time being.

With love and light, always!~

 

February 5th

This is a nonfiction story of extreme hardships, the divine purpose before me, mysticism, my ascension sickness that I dealt with and esotericism. It is important to start from the prologue of this story for it to come together and to look through the rest of the earlier posts for information and insight. It is really important for you to do this to get the full picture. I wouldn’t be putting this down if I wasn’t being truthful and honest with everything.

In the early morning on February 5th, Benjamin was starting to break down again saying that all he saw was hate and blood and “that it all hurts.” It was when he started to see a vision of a girl in a Gothic outfit smiling at him. Saying that someone was after him and he wasn’t sure as to why. I was trying to understand what he was going through at the time. He said that someone told him “You will die because you killed them” and he didn’t remember killing anyone. I tried telling him that if you think that you didn’t then there’s nothing to worry about. After, he said he feels nothing but a big gap in his heart doesn’t know why it’s there and said it’s missing a part. I asked what the gap was supposed to be and if it can be completed in some way. He was saying that Emotion did this, that his heart was missing a part and that he frequently sees an illusion of a girl wearing black and then he is shocked and paralyzed afterwards. He said he has seen this woman before but didn’t know who it was. I asked a few questions about what she looked like and got the fact that she was in a black cloak, with black hair, a choker, and that she looked to be of a neutral emotion. He said it sort of looked like Chelsea.

Now later in the day he messages me that he is out in the middle of the desert near Los Angeles walking alone and that he did not chose to do this but he was forced to, he was controlled to do so to look for Chelsea because of the disconnect. (Imgur Skype Images, Image 6) At what lengths he would go to find her I knew that I needed to try to get her back to him. I asked a few questions and got that they met on the Gotpvp Minecraft server and that the second day he asked her out and that’s how he got with Chelsea. He wanted to fix everything Emotion did going too far and using his body. Since Emotion is out of control Real Ben starts to break down because it’s missing a part of his heart. This is where I asked him if he could tell me anything he could to help me help him and he told me he had a friend named Matthew that watched over him with cameras and wrote things down of what his body does when he loses control of it. He also told me some other interesting things of what “Emotion” does. Then he got picked up by a bus driver from a Asian Christian service organization. He walked into a church where there was free food and saw a kid wearing a shirt saying “San Gabriel marching band” so he said he was from San Gabriel and then went home with him.

This is where I was trying to tell him that there is some other type of help out there than just me. He still said there was no help and that “we know what it wants now but how do we get it” referring to Chelsea. I asked him some questions again and told him I was trying to get to her. I asked him if those emotions were truly his own or not and he answered with saying that they were lost after his friends died and Emotion set a different segment in his body and that his own body is killing itself at that moment. I was wondering why that was happening and just didn’t understand. This is where he told me that Emotion had sense and that he senses feelings from Chelsea. Saying that the feeling is good between her but she doesn’t know about the connection she made. Emotion can sense what is on her body and what Chelsea does like if she hurts herself – Real Ben feels the pain, gets shocked if it’s pain or paralyzed if it’s by a needle. He noticed that Chelsea has been cutting herself. He finally arrived back at home an hour later.

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With love and light, always!~

January 28th-February 1st

This is a nonfiction story of extreme hardships, the divine purpose before me, mysticism, my ascension sickness that I dealt with and esotericism. It is important to start from the prologue of this story for it to come together and to look through the rest of the earlier posts for information and insight. It is really important for you to do this to get the full picture. I wouldn’t be putting this down if I wasn’t being truthful and honest with everything.

During these days it was more of a lull, a downtime with no sign of Emotion affecting him this time. Chelsea came back to him for a little while now as she was out of the hospital. I thought that whatever I was doing was working for him to make him feel better.

On January 28th, was the day he had his checkup and everything was good with his health. After, he said he was walking back home at night with friends and gave me a picture to confirm it. (Imgur Skype images, image 2) I was happy to see he wasn’t going alone, though he said he was going to separate from them and walk back about fourty minutes through a shady part of town. I wasn’t too sure of it and suggested he not go through any bad streets and get dropped off by car but he didn’t take my advice. So during his walk apparently he had a gun shot wound on his hand. (Imgur Skype images, image 4) I wasn’t too sure of it but he did say where he would be walking through. Walking through the Compton area no doubt. I asked who shot him and he said it was gangsters that did. He said the police would usually stay away from that area. I was wondering why I even suggested anything to him anymore. Later, I gave him a light hearted comment about drunkards coming off the train by me being the worst problem for my area. I was just happy that he was safe. I now look back at the third image in my Imgur Skype images album and wonder what that face is because it doesn’t look like him. It was when he left his friends that night.

On January 29th, is basically the day we played a ton of Minecraft and on there he was normal, he was himself for the remainder of the day. Saying that it’s the Real Ben that I’m speaking to now. I was quite happy at this time to see that I was most likely helping him with his thoughts but trouble soon started again.

On January 31st, this was when he was talking about knives for whatever reason and telling me that “shes cutting” and continued on about knives. I told him to stop it but he said his body is forcing him into it and it isn’t him doing it. I told him to fight it and he said that he wouldn’t give in. He said he had no one but that he has me and I told him I wish I could be over there for him. We started to play Minecraft and a lot of it after the delightful little chat. After we played Minecraft some things started to happen. His brothers had forced him to do homework and he hated them for that. I was trying to be supportive and saying that it’s important for his future and they wanted whats best for him.

On February 1st, he had thoughts again saying that he can’t move, speak, or hear and only see and feel. I asked him if he was ok and he said he was fine just that he didn’t have much words. He couldn’t sleep and just wanted to release his emotions. I was trying to reason with him and have some way to offer advice / comfort him. Telling him that if he doesn’t find help about this situation that it will just get worse for him. Him telling me it’s because of his nightmares and his hate and that he can no longer sense emotion. I was trying to tell him to get those bad thoughts out and replace them with good memories. Also trying to tell him that he has some sort of condition that he needs help managing. He tells me he wants to be sent away, he wanted to be away from his brothers, away from home and wanted to be somewhere else he hasn’t been to yet with someone he can’t see yet. I asked if he talked to Chelsea and he said he doesn’t know why she is “awake” – or out of the hospital. I had called him on Skype chat and talked to him for awhile while he played some games on an ipad. It was an interesting conversation to say the least.

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With love and light, always!~

January 26th

This is a nonfiction story of extreme hardships, the divine purpose before me, mysticism, my ascension sickness that I dealt with and esotericism. It is important to start from the prologue of this story for it to come together and to look through the rest of the earlier posts for information and insight. It is really important for you to do this to get the full picture. I wouldn’t be putting this down if I wasn’t being truthful and honest with everything.

On January 26th in the early morning hours, I had another discussion with Emotion. When he had returned home he said to himself “Why didn’t he die” “when I sliced him” saying that hes unhuman and that’s why he hates Real Ben. Saying that he obtained the ability to heal quickly from the air, from the plant energy quickly. Also saying that he had another cell within him and I was told that a white blood cell is built up very quickly. I thought it was a disease of some kind because that’s usually the case but nothing from the doctors. Then he tells me he hurt Real Ben’s throat and that he made a poison. I just didn’t really believe what was happening again. Real Ben came back and saw that he was poisoned and that he’s coughing a lot. I told him to contact a poison control center right away and to tell his brothers but he did not listen. Later that day, he said he was just taking medication and it was a side effect of the drug. I was still scared from the other night yet again but was glad he was ok. He wanted to play some more Minecraft after that. He also said that he was sick and had a soar throat and runny nose and I was also sick at the time.

This is where he changed yet again but this time he became the good side of Emotion or Good Emotion – his other side to himself, Emotion, having two sides itself. He was asking for my help this time instead of being harsh. I was saying that there were multiple personalities now and sort of questioning what I read. Good emotion was saying to bring “the crystal” back to Real Ben and said that he is his emotion and that he was different from being an evil or polite person. Also said that he had six months left from the poison which didn’t kill him yet and that nothing can prevent it. I asked what the crystal was and he said it was a girl named Tubby (Chelsea) from Minecraft and if I brought her back to him that he would be healed. I asked what happened between them as it seemed more than just losing a girlfriend and still wasn’t so sure of what was going on. He was saying that he was with her all this time until bad emotion or evil emotion lost its sanity. Saying that all he wanted was a heart which he never had. A spirit named Veronica resides with Real Ben and is attached to him he says. I was just playing along at the time saying what it wanted to hear and that I understood. He also said that he will be normal forever once that is achieved. Real Ben just wanted to be friends with Chelsea until he appeared. The Evil Emotion (we’ll call it) threw him into a relationship. I was still thinking that he was possibly possessed at this point and had a mention of an exorcism to be done but no, he said the only cure is to bring her back to Ben. Saying Emotion never wanted Real Ben to be hated by Chelsea when Evil Emotion took over and ruined the relationship. I was wondering how I could find Veronica or Tubby and was told that Veronica is invisible to everyone as she’s a spirit and that no one can contact her but Benjamin. I then asked what would happen if she doesn’t listen to me and I got a response of evil losing control and going it’s own path. I said I would try to bring her back as much as I could. Saying that I was meant for something greater. Still sort of playing along as I wasn’t really sure but it sounded like possession to me. I was told I was great for being there for him and given some more information of her contacts but I searched and got no results. After what looks like a struggle for possession, Bad Emotion came back and asked “why we are protecting this kid.”

Then Real Ben came back and said that the evil soul was still torturing him. I then asked if he has a bi-polar personality and was fighting all this for two years and he said yes. I wondered why I didn’t see any of that while we were on Minecraft and he said he wasn’t really there or something of the sort. I tried telling him that this spirit or demon needed to move on and wasn’t living now and can’t own him but he said it doesn’t listen. I continued searching around for Chelsea’s Skype and was trying to contact her. After some trouble finding her on Skype and some other initial try for contact at some other places we played some more Minecraft. Then Evil Emotion came back and said some mean spirited things after I said “stay safe.” I then said something to him to try to unearth the mean spirited thing and I got the usual responses a demon would say back at me. He wanted Ben to die and was getting pissed that Ben was being revived and escaping death each time. I kept on with my stance, saying to move on to the afterlife and that his girlfriend possibly died at some point, etc. I was acting up as well to be honest. Then he said that he was alive since he was in 6th grade and that Real Ben abandoned him – abandoned Emotion. I asked what it will take for him to stop and move on and he said he needed a girl, a crystal, a love of some sort. Then he said he would kill off Ben if I didn’t give in to his demands. Then I asked him what I must do and it was to bring him the love of Chelsea back into his life. I continued to search for her as he made matters sort of rushed you could say. Then Real Ben came back on to tell me she was in the hospital and I tried to comfort him with some words of encouragement.

You may follow the story from the full Skype chat logs from my “how the story goes” post.

with love and light, always!~

January 23rd-24th

The next one in the series will be given tomorrow. This is a nonfiction story of extreme hardships, the divine purpose before me, mysticism, my ascension sickness that I dealt with and esotericism. It is important to start from the prologue of this story for it to come together and to look through the rest of the earlier posts for information and insight. It is really important for you to do this to get the full picture. I wouldn’t be putting this down if I wasn’t being truthful and honest with everything.

On January 23rd, I got a rash message from his brother Anthony over Skype asking me where Benjamin is. I pinged him on his other Skype account (the one he uses his phone on) asking him if he’s ok and where he is located because he wouldn’t tell his brothers but seemed to answer me with ease. He was wondering why I was so concerned of his whereabouts. I was just glad I got in contact with him on Skype this time. He said he was taken in and questioned by police and was at some office building east of LA. His brother also said that this is a reoccurring thing that happens, taken in by the government and questioned him. So he was walking home alone after that (and probably didn’t tell them where he lived or just wanted to walk home). After awhile, he actually returned home to my amazement and things seemed normal with him. We went back on to play some Minecraft with each other and things seemed normal for once. No sudden change of character during the day, just maybe a couple depressive thoughts. He did speak about the key again and I asked how to attain it. After him telling me it’s a key to another soul which will reveal the real Ben I know (back from September). I just went along with it and used the advice of that person from 7cups again to just play along with him.

On January 24th, I had a talk with Emotion Ben again. I thought at the time that this was just a code name he gives when he changes to his other self. I wasn’t really sure what was going on and why he was acting all different again. I knew him being normal for about four months time without this sudden change. He just said that the Emotion Ben and Real Ben (The Ben I know), that their souls would break. That the real Ben would be rid of and that he’s no longer needed for Emotion Ben. That Emotion Ben doesn’t like Real Ben. Then he just said he’s just an emotion with hate and he hates Real Ben because he’s the opposite – a good soul. I responded with some good words and he attacked me saying “Shut up” to me. Saying he hates everything and that he would kill me once he sees me and that “he would do anything to get his crystal, the key to the crystal”. Then he switches suddenly to Real Ben and he says “I can abandon all feelings.” I was wondering if he was ok after all that. I got a confirmation that it was him again and asked him how long this was going on. Asked if there were any words I needed to avoid and was told to just talk around it. I pretty much shrugged off whatever Emotion Ben said after. After some small talk I came back after my shower and saw that he said he was sorry for something. Saying that Emotion woke up and “got him” and sliced his body. 84 lacerations all over his body. I thought he was joking about being sliced up but he was serious. He fainted and then his brother Anthony came on and cursed at me wondering what happened to his brother. I told him that “Emotion” cut him and urged Anthony to send him to the hospital so that was done.

I get a message about two hours later that he’s in the hospital and that his wounds have already healed in under two hours no less. This was where I started thinking some sort of possession was happening to him. Him saying that the hospital didn’t do anything for him and that he healed on his own accord. I also thought at this time that he was making things up for me and that it was all a little hard to believe. He said that the doctor hypothesized that he had a lot of white blood cells to heal quickly. I apologized for what I said to him and was just trying to wrap my head around it. After some talk he passed the phone to his brother and after about a minute his brother said that “He’s gone” and asked what he meant by that. He said his brother was gone and said that something wasn’t right with him. I said that I might have some info for him (for Anthony) and asked how Ben was. He said that Ben was asleep and that they were taking a lot of blood. I asked if he was saying any strange things or acting completely different and Anthony said that “he wants the crystal” and that “everything is off about him.” Then I told him what he must do. I told him that an exorcism must be performed on him because he has signs of possession and gave him an excerpt from that scary night on the 20th when he wasn’t himself at all and recalled what happened on the 19th when I heard HIM speak to me. I didn’t get a response from it but I still knew something was just not right with this situation.

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With love and light, always~